I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T-!-!-!
thats the word i must always stick it in mind.
Everyone grows up already & have lots to explore.
So i have to be dependent on my own!!!
Everyone has their own personal life to handle,
i just cant sit there and wait for ppl to accompany
me to do this and that....
I have to stand up and do it myself....
Last Thursday my mum told me that my ahma's doctor
told my aunt that, dialysis can help my ahma live for another
few years only...give her what she wants
t0 eat dont stop her from anything..
Let her enjoy herself, after i heard about this my heart
became like....idk how to express but i know its painful!!!!
Last Saturday, went for Ahma's b'day dinner.
& something makes me feel im afraid of losing someone close.
After singing b'day song my dad gave my ahma a kiss
on her cheek and thats make me even more heart-warming.
We gave her surprise by inviting her elder sister over,
& my dad sat down with my ahma's sister and ahma.
Chat & chat tears flow down my dad cheeks....
Even my ahma's sister teared tooooo..
After last year incident of ahma's sister passing away...
Everyone has this thinking that when is their turn?!
My dad drank alot alot and he was kinda
drunk that night toooo....
So i guess he doesn't know what he was chanting otw home.....
He said his heart feels painful, & he only got
one mother & he loves her very much...
After that he keep saying mother, mother....
I hold back my tears and swallow a breath down...
Watching me grow for this 19 years my ahma
tends to be irritating at times, but nevertheless
i still at times buy her things and show appreciation...
Just love her when she smiles broadly.....
I even took photos with her alone to keep it as my
childhood memories.....
When all grandson and granddaughter took
photo with her alone she said that
"your ahma not MING XING hor!"
see how cute is my ahma right?!
My aunt has all the photo and have to wait!!!
That day looking or seeing all my cousin,
24-3 years old i ask myself will we still
be this close if we are all grown-up adult?!
I know we are cousin for life but will we?!
